we were fucking adorable together last night. when we tripped together on sunday we sat on the porch and smoked a cigarette outside in the freezing cold. at this one point we cuddled up together and put on M83 and had the most intense wave where these lights were flashing everywhere and things were harmonized with the song.

yesterday as i was sitting in class not paying attention, i saw that M83 was coming for a show in may, and instantly bought two tickets. one for myself and one for him.

i didn’t expect to see him that night, but i went to the cafe to wait for matt to get out. he was there, and i told him and he kissed me twice and hugged me so hard and asked me to buy me a drink with the guys after work. i had never been to a bar with him, but instantly agreed.

he bought me two, i want to say easily 40 ounce, PBR’s and sat and talked. 

then we went out for a cigarette together.

he said it last night, that we are going to be something together. he asked me about kids. he asked me about what i want to do with my life. he asked me about having sex with him. then he asked me to shake on it, he asked ME. i’ve been the one hiding this deep hidden emotion about him, and he asked me to shake on being together in the future. he said that all of these things were going to happen in time, and i know they will. i’ve always known they will.

holy fuck balls that made me happy.